Struck A Nerve

2008-03-29T16:09:00.000+08:00

2008-03-25T23:18:00.002+08:00

Detention.
Kthx mrbek, that's exactly wht I need. More time to waste.

Jy and me were in Interact all along but we didnt realised. Until today's GM. Hahah. Mmm hope Fann Jy Ariele and me will get to go for the Cebu trip. 6 days of June holi, but the selfless me wants to serve the society. Hahah.

Anyhoo trng was... dreadful. To the max. It didnt feel like netball at all. Everyone's so dead serious & fierce. Cant smile cant laugh cant relax. I understand that season is nearing, but this is not the game I want to play. Okay the atm did kind of lighten up till the end, but well... How much can things change I ask you?

Oh yes loser me didnt take the econs test tday.
Econs was the 1st period, so you can infer for yrself. Hahah.
And goodygoodnews, chem's been postponed to fri. Yippee!

Sadly, there's maths.
Like tmr like I havent studied. Yay.

2008-03-24T15:52:00.003+08:00

Am at sk macs with Gc right now and we're supposed to be studying but as you can see the plan's not working out.

So physics VA in the morn which was well... screwed? Grp, consisting of karen fann jy and me, was kc-ing before we went in, and we just wrote out all the formulae we learnt. Hahah. Still, lack of time and we ended off not knowing what our alphabet y stood for. -_-"

According to karen there's econs & chem tests tmr kthx I've liked barely touched my notes. Or should I say i dont know where they are.

Amoy street lunch with shisi jie, and arts&natl museums with Gc. We didnt know where to go, and we walked ard town aimlessly until we met 3 nj "lost souls" and found the arts museum tgd. Haha. Realised our cards wont get stamped (for those who were "atrociously late", said the tcher) so we left for CP after the sg history trail, which had some rly cool stuff. Wont mind gg back once more.

Kayyyy, shall move to the lib while waiting for charlene.
Byebyez.

2008-03-23T23:27:00.001+08:00

This brings back SO MANY memories.
Cedar kicks ass!

Three years ago in Cedar
we first step into the school la
Then all the seniors say 'wah'
Cause the shirt all tuck in mah
Then go for orientation
followed by audition
Got to CCA
Got a lot of time to play

Two years ago in Cedar
O level still quite far
But cannot relax la
Cause this year streaming ah
First time take part SYF
Feeling rather stress
Hair was in a mess
Got no time to rest
Somemore got alot of test
Rather go play chess

One year ago in Cedar
What you think, only last year la
Congratulations
got subject combination
And as you can see
This year got leader, instructor and OAC
But alwys have to control pee
After that everyone bond
and a newer cedarian was born

Now the last year in cedar
O level must get A star
Or not, L1R5 sa-la
But got nothing to fear
Cause everyday got remedial
And a large homework pile
And many unpacked files
But surely reach the heavens
Cause we're class of two thousand seven!

-Tay YinXue, 4C

2008-03-22T17:10:00.001+08:00

Oh yeah I forgot there's chem spa.
Dmn.

Am at sgcc with sarah now.
Okay study study.

2008-03-22T00:31:00.003+08:00

Wshan_ says:
i am so sick of school
because this is life&life's like that. says:
me tooo
haha
let's quit school and work at macdonalds
everyone's complaining
!Wshan_ says:
no i want to work at din tai fung
because this is life&life's like that. says:
okay
haha
whatever
!Wshan_ says:
i have 4 tests next week and i am so damn dead havent started lah
because this is life&life's like that. says:
see my nick

Yeah yeah kthx tiff. -_-'

BECAUSE THIS IS LIFE & LIFE'S LIKE THAT.

(& i srlys think my blog's more suited to be named Weishan's Complain Blog or smth similar. maybe On My Nerves. haha.)

2008-03-22T00:20:00.002+08:00

Shit I've never felt so screwed up before.

Look at what's up next week:
1) Chem test - till chemical bonding II
2) Econs test - till the PED thingums
3) Maths test - i bet its everything
4) Physics VA - work, energy, power

Wtf wtf i'm gonna be worse off than dead. Why cos I've only read through chem bonding so far, you're the best man weishan.

OMG LAH netball trng tmr after which screams MUG TIME!

I wanna see my cedar fwends. ):
limtsuwie charlene jiasai tiffy. and samchan eileen&shisi jie.
Miss you guys. much.

Psssst did I say I detest Jc life?

2008-03-21T00:10:00.002+08:00

Lingerie. Jy and I kept exchanging looks whenever smth "gross" came up.
Art of Dressing. Quite boring. Made a new friend though, cos none of my classmates was there.
The Elegant Universe. 4hour physics movie. Cool stuff, but the dialogues were yawnzxzxz material.

Left halfway to get my retainers (damnnn uncomfortable) and cabbed back to school hoping to catch the last few minutes of the movie. In the end chaiying called when I was on the cab and said it had alr ended and my card was already stamped (main purpose of gg). -_-" Wasted 10+ bucks on cab fare, collected my card and went home.

Sigh my life's becoming increasingly boring.
Everything i do revolves around sch.

Srlys, I havent even got the chance to explore bukit timah or even go to coronation for lunch or whatsoever. Are NJcians really that lifeless?

Okay. Chemical bonding time.

2008-03-19T20:09:00.003+08:00

I'm boring meeself to death.

So.
My wisdom teeth (4, in fact) are growing and I can feel it. Freaky.

Sexuality ed was... boring-ly enriching. Learnt The Best Sex, 10 Advances to Sexual Intimacy (izzit), and things like that. Suggestive names but please dont think dirty. Well the speakers werent very engaging but they were pretty generous with the prizes. My grp got 3rd leh. (:

We kind of "made" fann's day by saying she looked like she's from China. Rural part of the cty or Shanxi. Oops.

Corporate Etiquette was a laugh, in a good way. Teo Ser Lee was the conductor and she's so pretty!

Queued up for the quiz to get free movie tix but both ariele and me got the 2nd question wrong stupidstupidstupid.

O, there's a vj class outing tmr but I cant make it. Cry.
08s46. ):

2008-03-18T23:07:00.003+08:00

I want to get out of here.
I want to get out of here.
I want to get out of here.

21 more months.
(if i get through promos)

I hate this place.

Please.
Shi jian, qing ni kuai dian fei ba.

2008-03-17T23:02:00.003+08:00

Wshan has been very antisocial lately.

2008-03-16T00:38:00.008+08:00

I.

Really.

Miss.

VJ Netball.

Eirene andrea clara xueling nafisah shiwen jocelyn june yining jasmine teresa sherlene1 sherlene2. Miss teoh, the best netball coach I've ever had.

2008-03-15T14:51:00.003+08:00

Ohmygooshygosh conversing with ninisu is bloody funny. (random: shouldnt bloody be pronounced as blUdy? not blAdy)

2008-03-15T14:21:00.004+08:00

When you break it down
I'm just two girls
Trying to blend, trying to vibe
Trying to live just one life

I dreamt about mrbek last night and in that dream... he was nice to me. He gave chocolates to the latecomers (haha) and passed me my timetable without saying anything. Nothing in that tone, nothing with that look.

Am I psychic or am i psychic.
I mentioned lady's fingers, bittergourd and vinegar (all of which i HATE) to tsuwie during thur's dinner and KABOOM, we had all three things for dinner the next day.

Suni is still injured. Shockshockhorror. Ninisu, do speed up your recovery and return to floorball and play with -! And yes, netball too, i wanna see you play for vj this year! (-:

P.S Parveennair has a stalker! :-D
P.P.S Dynamitees, let's go out and PARA PARA together!

2008-03-14T00:54:00.003+08:00

NJ training - cancelled.
Sneakers training - cancelled.

)-:

Am still at atoms, molecules & stoichiometry, aka chapter 1. This calls for a celebration.

Tsuwie's mum was so nice today it was the first time I'm not scared of her. :D Chocolate feast, pumpkin soup. I love her house though all we do is talk, and not study.

Gc please dont go, I want us to stay in the hostel tgd. Maybe not roommates, but still under the same roof.

Good & bad news. I'll be bidding goodbye to my braces soon. Hmm can't imagine life without them cos they've literally become part of me since 2006.

2008-03-12T16:10:00.005+08:00

Hello loomie, you're mine. (:

Feels like it was just yesterday.
Feels like, the pain wont go away.

You,
Give me a reason not to care.
(well i know you dont)

What a stubborn heartache.

2008-03-12T14:12:00.004+08:00

yanwen says:
hey you are?
!Wshan_ says:
er, who are you? haha
yanwen says:
yanwen. are you from nj? or tj?
!Wshan_ says:
nj
yanwen says:
08s12? i'm your classmate..
!Wshan_ says:
er no. 08s02 hahah. did you add me ? i didnt realise.
yanwen says:
yeah i added you hmm.ohh.
!Wshan_ says:
oh, how did you get my add?
yanwen says:
were you in 08s12?
!Wshan_ says:
errrr nope.
yanwen says:
hmm strange
!Wshan_ says:
wait, what cca are you in?
yanwen says:
taf
!Wshan_ says:
track and field?
yanwen says:
yeah
!Wshan_ says:
Oh... okay.
yanwen says:
trim and fit..........
!Wshan_ says:
how did you get my email add? hahah.
yanwen says:
wait
i'm thinking
!Wshan_ says:
haha ok this is funny
yanwen says:
what's your name?
!Wshan_ says:
weishan
yanwen says:
guy?
!Wshan_ says:
GIRL.
yanwen says:
alright cool
!Wshan_ says:
you're a girl right
yanwen says:
nope
i'm a guy
!Wshan_ says:
huh. haha
yanwen says:
this is funny
!Wshan_ says:
oops. haha yah this is damn weird

2008-03-11T22:07:00.003+08:00

Tiffywong & Samchan, I miss you twooooooooo.
):

I'd do anything to see you guys again.

Alex Mack, Amber Brown, Boxcar Children, Babysitters Little Sister, Amelia Jane, don't they ring a bell? I'd like to get my hands on some of these childhood reads now.

Nyeh I'm getting tuition.

2008-03-11T02:15:00.003+08:00

Argh I've got like a million humongous mosquito bites on my legs thanks to this one teenyweeny bloodsucker's presence for the past 5min and they're freaking itchy lah kthxbye. Sarah's telling me to spray some insect repellant but i dont wanna go to bed feeling like a sticky pudding.

Ohgod itchywitchyditchy bites! Damn those bloody mosquitoes (well arent they).

I'm currently hooked onto Big 2.5. And Checkmate, which Sarah finds boring but wtv its a strategic game which suits THINKERS like me. Haha.

ARGH THE ITCH(ES) ARE FREAKING IRRITATING.

Anyway, dear readers (if i have any), please be a kind soul and show support for my dearest neighbour by going to http://illbehavingwhatsheshaving.blogspot.com and buying some of her gorgeous hand-made toys. :D I've got the hellokitty one and its just so cute and irreplaceable.

Alright, back to daidi.

2008-03-10T17:48:00.002+08:00

'Cause I don't care if I ever talk to you again.

This is not about emotion,

I don't need a reason not to care what you say,

Or what happened in the end.

This is my interpretation,

And it don't, don't make sense.

2008-03-08T11:52:00.002+08:00

HEY what's the big idea?
Yo, Mika!
I said sucking too hard on your lollipop
Oh, love's gonna get you down
I said sucking too hard on your lollipop
Oh, love's gonna get you down

Sucking too hard on your lollipop
oh love's gonna get you down
Sucking too hard on your lollipop
oh love's gonna get you down
Say love, say love
oh love's gonna get you down
Say love, say love
oh love's gonna get you down.

I went walking with my momma one day
When she warned me what people say

Live your life until love is found
'Cause love's gonna get you down.
Take a look at the girl next door
She's a player and a downright bore
Jesus loves her, she wants more
Oh, bad girls get you down.

Singin'!

Mama told me what I should know
Too much candy gonna rot your soul
If she loves you let her go
'Cause love only gets you down.
Take a look at a boy like me
Never stood on my own two feet
Now I'm blue as I can be
Oh love come and get me down.

Singin'!

Say love, say love
Oh love's gonna get you down.

I went walking with my momma one day
When she warned me what people say
Live your life until love is found
Or love's gonna get you down.

Singin'!

Mama told me what I should know
Too much candy gonna rot your soul
If she loves you let her go
'Cause love only gets you down.

2008-03-06T13:54:00.003+08:00

When its time to hit the books, my natural reaction is to go straight to sleep. Dang.

2008-03-04T23:06:00.003+08:00

Shit chem consultation tmr and I'm still online!
OMG cant go unprepared like tt.
Talk lah ws talk somemore.

After much deliberation, I decided to give the KL netball trip a miss. ):
The NJ netballers are very united, and I really do feel like an intruder there. O its not the reason why I'm nt gg. Aiya, must unscrew my studies first.

Arghhhh 3 chem chaps to look thru tonight and invent some qns to ask tmr. And I STILL havent photocopied the bloody chem bonding notes. Die.

Its stupiddddd but "The National Dream" (school song which sounds like one of the ndp songs) is stuck in my head.

Building a familyyyyyyy, to answer a nation's callingggggg...
Crazy.

HAHA the sch uni is WATERPROOF, FIREPROOF and BULLETPROOF. Funnyshit.

Jiaying and I are always ps-ing the class to go to the library. I sleep while she studies, like obviously. Hahah. Its quite sad that I'm not putting in much effort to get to know my classmates better.

Gc (hahaha graphic calculator), please dont leave! ):

OK.
TIRED.
but must study. )x

2008-03-02T01:11:00.001+08:00

I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone.

But this time its different
I dont even feel the distance.

Im not missing,
Im not missing you.

2008-02-29T14:35:00.001+08:00

JIAYING IS THE BEST.
:-D

2008-02-29T00:51:00.001+08:00

Omgawd. I just realised...

6march makeup tutorials
2.50-3.40: gp
3.40-4.30: physics
4.30-5.30: chem
5.20-6.10: maths

Cool.

not.

2008-02-28T23:21:00.003+08:00

Fking tired and screwed up.
Hell yes I am.

Bit by bit, my academic life is crumbling.
Not to mention social life is equivalent to being non-existent.

I need a tutor, or else this year spells R-E-T-A-I-N.
That's how awesome my studies are now.

Interact Club camp tmr. (they're choosing only 60) ]:
Imagine lugging your files, lecture notes, pencilcase, clothes, camping necessities, sleeping bag and whatnot to school. Heavy shit. I need a luggage.

I'm in a darn bad mood now.
Cos I havent start studying.
But I have to check KM in case I've missed anything out. Not like I've not, but wtv.

Bad mood = damn lousy AP.

OK hello KM bye bloggerz.

Hello cedar fwends, I miss eu.

2008-02-25T22:33:00.006+08:00

Today was boring.
I had a 2hr break after reaching sch, and then another 3hr break before my last lecture. And all together there were only 3 lectures, with school starting at 7.40am and ending at 5.30pm.

Bcos I had a sleepless night (insomnia acting agn), I spent the breaks sleeping like a vagrant. Srlys. At the grandstands then in the library. Was so bloody tired I could barely keep my eyes open. Head was obvlys nodding away during physics.

I'm a l0n3ly_mis3rabl3_gUrlz here.
Cos so few cedarians. ):

But Jiang Jiani's in my class! Hoho. Its an unfortunate (& freaking stupid) thing tt Gc and me overlooked the CONTACT word in the timetable and ended up missing Contact time. So I didnt get to see my class in the end. Nor did I get my timetable.

Bad day huh.

Got a bball flyer from Veronica tday. Hahah, its a known fact that I cant dribble the ball unless I stand at the same spot. Soooo Gc and me are in hockey after approaching Pamela who's really nice! :D Shall join netball for trng tmr. I wanna play ballz!

Dragged myself to J8 to get some presents and I helped Jessie get her Chip&Dale bedsheets! Now we have the same ones! (:

There's a shitload of studying to do. Lots of catching up. Fkkkk 2nd intakers are really so neglected. ):

Looking forward to enrichment wk. Need time (lots of it) to look at what i'm missed out on.

TIME TO EMBRACE THE MUGGER LIFESTYLEZ WS.

2008-02-24T19:32:00.003+08:00

OMG why didnt anyone tell me lomography exists?! Lomo cams are so cool!

Supersampler

Diana

Colorsplash

Fisheye

Pop

Oktomat

There's a Dalek Supersampler selling online but its $135/- and I'm currently very very broke but I want it so badly! Just looking at the gallery makes one swoon.

Ohmygod lomo's the bombz.

2008-02-23T01:32:00.003+08:00

I know I just blogged not long ago.

Looking back at the past & comparing it with the present, it has come to my realisation tt I'm very much different from the person I was in Sec1. Very, very different.

Its scary trying to figure out what kind of person I am now. Cos I can hardly explain for my actions, and sometimes I myself cant even understand why I would have the guts (& conscience) to do certain things.

Its definitely not a gd feeling. Why is it that it seems like I've become more selfish, more irresponsible and less emotionally-charged now that I've grown older? Like I'm often immune to other people's feelings, and even my own too. Like I've built an invisible wall around me thus not allowing ppl to get close & connect with me.

Its as if,
I'm a stranger to myself.

Or maybe someone would like to tell me I'm just being too sensitive. I dont want to turn into a cold-hearted, unfeeling & uncaring creature.

2008-02-23T01:02:00.003+08:00

FREDFLARE (-:
LOUNGEFLY <-3
INDIE ART COLLECTIVE :-D

My materialistic wants are being very distracting atm.

So yesterday saw me skipping roadrun and running the same dist in the gym with Gc. Woke up and finished Que Sera Sera. Damn boring drama btw, it was a complete waste of my time. Sakae to satisfy my hunger & craving, to Jessie's to watch Huang Zhu Ge Ge. :\ Mum's allowing me to get a laptop from her, which is v unexpected but I'm happy. :D

This is a random thought. Will the locals get left out of the projects tt Sg will be embarking on? Eg the Youth Olympics. Like recruiting foreigners to take on most of the jobs and responsibilities and all we do is just stand back, face inflation & other domestic problems, and watch the cty's progress w/o actl being part of it. Except the govt ofc. I knw I'm just a student who's supposedly apathetic abt things like this but it kinds of disturbs and worries me when I read abt it in the pprs. Plus its nt as if my family's nt affected.

Ok wtv. Maybe this is the effect of being in NATIONAL junior college. Hah. :P

I'm nt thinking straight.

And.

I think its time to start studying, weishan.

2008-02-22T02:39:00.002+08:00

Bloghopped onto a Cedar nballer's blog. Idk who she is. Reading about the team and everything they've gone through this year makes me so nolstalgic, and even jealous. Like I should have been there at every moment they were together, like I should have been in the team this year. That's illogical and stupid, but it simply shows how much I miss Cedar netball, and how much I want to be part of everything again. ):

Anyway, I'm can't be more proud of my juniors than I am now. (:

Okay, I'm really tired.

2008-02-20T22:08:00.006+08:00

{If I were an American, I'd support Ooooobama. I dont like war}

Mum's first words when she saw the NJ uniform: "Eee so ugly." WL. Anyway the skirt's like rly long and i think i need to change the sizes of both that and the blouse. Too big. Random: wearing it makes me look & feel like I'm in the military. Idkw so dont ask me.

PearlynNeo said she was gonna call me. I've been waiting for 2 hours and she's still MIA-ing. ):

Met Sandra (VJ classmate) in NJ today. Apparently she's appealing to RJ AND back to VJ. -_-" Oh and a couple of my OG mates too. Good to know that I'm not the only weird one. :P

Yay I love NJ. The motto vision blahblahblah everything. School song also! Though (quote Chyiwei) it sounds like one of the songs we sing on NDP. Hahah.

My OG's really big, enough to form one class. Its been pretty alright, except that I couldnt help yawning every 5min or so during mass dance. Can't dance for nuts and pretzels.

Had to borrow Yimin's NYGH jacket whenever we had to sit down. So maluzzz! Reason shall be kept private. :P

{It suddenly hit me that I wont be stepping into VJ anymore}

Stupid, I dont wanna get wet tmr.

OMG i'm in hockey! Hahah.

{Tiffy's not in AC! )': I'm with you on this, girl}

The bball match btw NJ and this China team was rly entertaining. OMG so many YaoMings! And slamdunks are COOL, after nerds.

I dont like the each-a-cup stall cos I cant stop buying bubbletea from it. Argh.

Question of the day: "Do you know so-and-so?"

OK seems that today's been pretty interesting. :D

2008-02-19T19:37:00.002+08:00

Selection tests for H2 Chem & Mathematics?! OMG don't kid me please.

2008-02-18T02:51:00.004+08:00

This. Song. Rocks.
I hate t admit it bt i love Cinderella 3!

2008-02-18T01:37:00.003+08:00

My godsisters are better than yours. (;

Sarah came over on Sat evening 'cos both of us were bored and we rented Cinderella 3 and Freaky Friday! Yess we were feeling rly kiddy & chickflick-ish then. And when she was abt to leave, we made an impromptu decision t hv the sleepover agn and I was done packing in like 5min hahah. Oh shoot, I just rmb I forgot to pass neighbour her present after wrapping it ytd. -.-

Anw it was slack camp in her room but I loved it, cos that was wht we'd set out to do. (: Attempted cooking campbell soup at night and there was a freaky incident during which all 3 stoves lit up at once which shocked the hell out of us. Was scary but seems pretty funny now tt I recall how we jumped and yelped like scared dogs, hah. Oh and walking ard the kitchen using piano tbs to fan the place. Hilarious.

More movies when we woke up, met pu & tiffy on separate occasions at HM, and Eileen Jie suddenly wanted t give me a treat so I left early. Yayy we had dintaifung and I got to eat my red bean xiaolongbaos again! :D Wandered ard aimlessly for a while before succumbing t my lethargy and heading home after tt.

Much love to my friends & family! These people make my life so much more interesting. (:

Oh and mum's letting me stay at home tmr (which is tday actl). "Okay, since you're not going back there anymore." I swear this ponstar thing begins and ends in VJ. No such nonsense and truancy in NJ (if i do get in), never.

Man, I cant wait for tuesday - paper steamboat!

2008-02-16T13:14:00.000+08:00

I'm bored.

2008-02-16T00:10:00.004+08:00

Smth random. I was looking at the adidas sneakers contact list, and one of the girls Phebe actually has the same surname as me! Its not often tt I find people whose first name is Cheong u knw. (:

My calves are aching like a bitch (just like their owner) due to ytd's running. The muscles were all tight which made it quite an effort to run ard on court. Ah, I still love nball so... :B

The bdiv played well, and won SC by a rather huge margin. I'm so proud of Cedar yo. Must add tt the support shown was so immense it became v nooooooisy which kind of made me stressed. And I'm only talking about myself. Hahah.

Some bad experience at NJ today which left me feeling so unjustified and wronged. Fk those ppl who judge others at 1st sight w/o even bothering t get t know them (yes even their names) in the first place. They should seriously, get a life instead of spending their time making stupid assumptions abt others. Tsk, so immature.

Kay enough of annoying stuff its time to share some love, ws.

Anyway.

I'm really sorry guys.
I hate myself for what I've done.
But I know apologizing is hardly of any use now.
Lurbbzxz VJ nballz 4eva & eva. I'm serious. ):

Argh, I'm better off dead.

2008-02-14T15:49:00.004+08:00

Wed was pretty eventful.

Classmates caught me with charlene's class, sneaked into maths tutorial w/o tcher realising i hd been missing for quite some time, stupid edward: eh u les, boringz physics lecture during which many played pokemon while i copied econs notes, gg to PP just t withdraw (ugly)calculator $$, town for vday pressies, sakae - sick of it, many many cedarians shazzy shan vicky etc, hiding frm my not-so-favourite person, wangwang feast, going crazy in msn convos.

Thanks deb for saving my bottle! :D

And diet my foot.

Ah fk its xcty tomorrow.
Dont want dont want dont want! I mean I want t run but not competitively for nball pls.

Tuesday's the big day!

2008-02-11T23:31:00.000+08:00

Seeing Nic's room convinced me that my love for Anna Sui is not just a passing phase. Packaging is the ultimate driving force behind the marketing of cosmetics yeah. Anyhooo, bye Chip&Dale, hello Anna Sui! (ok i still like C&D a lil bit)

{I'm a serial pon-star}

Tsuwie and I skipped lessons in our respective jcs tday and did some, er, catching up. I was such a meanster, making her wait for me for so long! Sry weee! Treated her to CJ7, which was pretty OKAY though I was slightly disappointed tt it didnt turn out to be wht I had expected. I loveee Vivo its my favourite shopping mall, yes it beats the ones in town.

Finally got hold of an empty slot in Sarah Chua's schedule in the afternoon, hahah. This wafflesian is so busy now I think her time's worth $100/hr, or more. (: Left Vivo for town, to Kino looking for her organizer but to no avail. I searched for Hypnerotomachia Poliphili as well, but Kino didn't stock it. Found one rare copy at Borders in the end but it cost about $65, a freaking bombz. $65 for a book which content I won't even understand is CRAZY. But I really want it so badly! Hope it'll still be there by the time I'm ready to part with my money. Hahah. Oh! And the Real Rule of Four as well!

Anw lethargy got to both of us in the middle of everthing and we practically trudged around orchard, half complaining about how tired we were and the other talking abt random stuffs. I think I've not gotten over O's results, yet. Aye, idc.

Dinner at dintaifung yay I love the red bean dumplings. And I think we had quite a struggle with our Mandarin today cos there were quite a few encounters when we could speak only in Chinese. It was HORRIBLE i say.

{ANYTHING. WHATEVER.}

2008-02-09T18:56:00.000+08:00

Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep

{If there's anything I'm good in, that'll be procrastination.}

I need to go for a run but I'm too lazy to do so. Argh. Okay I'll set a time here - 8.

Grabbed some stationery and books at Popular and it cost me $50 - my own money. Sadface.

I don't know if I should attend lessons at VJC anymore. (Here I go again) The feeling's really weird now, along with the treatment I receive from my peers.. Idk. And MsTeoh's put me in to run for netball during x-cty. I personally feel that its unfair to andrea cos 1) She was fasting, therefore unfit, on the day we had the time trial 2) She's a much better runner than me 3) She's staying in vj netball. But if I do tell MsTeoh that I dont want to run for netball anymore, it'll seem so irresponsible of me. I dont like that.

Honestly I can't wait for day 1 at NJC (hope i get in). Really looking forward to a "new lease of life" there. Brand new environment.. Ooh I can't wait. Whatever ws.

As you can see I'm disengaging myself from VJ and becoming more pro-NJ as the days go by.

{I'm swearing off processed dried mango slices from now on.}

Btw the {} brackets mean random thoughts.

{I'M BORED!}

2008-02-08T11:33:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was tiring, and and and I ate so much! OMG I need to hit the gym... SOON.

Anyway there was once when we went to my grandmother's sister's daughter's house and my grandmother's siblings were all there. It was only then that I found out that my grandmother's sister's son is a physics or chem lecturer at NUS! T_T And I remembered him very clearly from the past years cos he was the only person whom I know would give $2 hongbaos. The extent of his generosity and his profession dont really match huh. And cos I didn't know what to call who, Nicole said "Just call them Auntie Uncle lah." -.-

I'm actually expected to "hang out with my cousins after school" if I go to NJ. Cos they live just a stone's throw away and Nic (cos she loves eating) knows all the places with good food. Aye... IDK what to say.

Troy is uberluber cute but he's a nuisance sometimes cos he won't stop talking.

Okayyy I've got a long day ahead of me. Taaa`

2008-02-07T18:25:00.000+08:00

I'm so boredz.

Yah I know its the CNY but somehow the celebratory mood and festive spirit haven't got into me. Or maybe its cos I've got noone my age whom I can talk to. The young ones are in my bro's room and the adults in the living. Sadz.

Was unfortunate to get the bloody flu today, so am nursing a running nose and crushing headache now. But silver lining in the clouds, more angbaos this year! :D Cos we're doing more visiting, to more relatives whom I dont know existed. Hahah.

I wonder what the rest of my friends are doing now.. :\ I miss the cprawnies!

Okayy safiah just dsc-ed on me. ): I need someone to talk to!

O yeah. Last min cny shopping ytd. Oh boyyyyz wasn't it a RUSH. I had exactly 3 hours to get my things, so I practically grabbed whatever looked nice in the shops. The queues at the fitting rooms were all SO LONG. Anw the shops closed before I got my shoes. ):

Ahhh I'm still bored. (yes i'm blogging just to keep myself occupied)

Its quite unprecedented, but I can't wait to start schooling in NJ, looking at how things have changed for me during this short period of time. I had unofficially swore not to join netball in NJ but silly Janelle's words have injected some kind of uncertainty in me. Nyehh. IDK.

All I need now is SLEEP.

2008-02-03T22:13:00.000+08:00

Omg the nonsensical tags on Charlene's blog are really LOL material.

"if i miss lion i can go t the zoo. but its diff for you, u have to go to wantho avenue"
"ahaha eh charlene you should just come to sa, can visit wan tho ave everyday!"

It rhymes yo! I think a poem about lionlionrawrrawr is quite possible. :D (okay kaiwei's gna kill me if she sees this)

Anyway, i just got my first hongbao today! (it rhymes again) My cousins are so bigggg now. Nicole's grown so... much vertically and horizontally. Infer yourself. Troy looks like a future playboy. :\ 'Cos he's like really cute! (omg paedophile) Anyhoo Nic is damn funny.

Nic: What do u want to do next time?
Ws: Business
Nic: You can do it in the toilet!

Okay it doesn't sound funny here. Btw she called my bro a "dim-witted pee-brain". So mean!

Shit there's school tmrrrw.
I need to go CNY shopping!

2008-02-01T10:28:00.000+08:00

I'm so uberloobersuperduper depressed.
No amount of wax nor any kind of hairband can save my nothing-to-comb hair. And my hair's still too short for hair extensions, lah. Cries.

I have no "lian" to meet the rest of the world, so here I am using Shisi Jie's lappie at her house instead of attending lectures & tutorials. Howwwww I dont want to pon any more lessons! ):

Stupid hair.
I shall heed Shiwen's advice, and keep shampooing it.
SHAMPOO SHAMPOOO SHAMPOOOOOZ.

I WANT TO GO TO SCHOOOOOOL!

2008-01-31T22:52:00.000+08:00

Xueling: "I still cant believe you're leaving."

Netball training today was good. Meaning fun and enjoyable. HAPPINESS circuit training, court game and conditioning. The first thing that came to my mind when I looked at the netballers laughing and chatting together was:

I shouldn't have come.

It'll make it so hard to leave when the time comes. ): Yining asked if I would join netball in NJ. Definitely not, I said. The reason behind it is that I dont think I can be loyal to any other netball team in jc, other than VJ's. I just love VJ Netball so damn much.

Cut my hair today and it fking SUCKS. I look like a little boy! Not proud of that. And then Jasmine smeared a whole load of LUCIDOL WAX on my hair (wanted to help MAKE IT NICER) and I had to go around with fuglier-thann-the-already-fugly hair the entire training. Argh. I had to hide from CK who was at the tennis courts when Yuhan PURPOSELY yelled his name. WL throw face can. I don't want to invite unnecessary mocking laughter!

I'm so screwed up for Chinese New Year.
& have no idea how I'm gonna face my classmates tmr.

2008-01-28T22:03:00.000+08:00

TIRED.

JAE was officially over at 4pm today. NJ. If you ask me "No regrets?", I'd say "I don't know". Yet. Am looking forward to meeting new people in a new (& foreign) environment, but VJ I'll miss, I'll miss. Thinking about everything that I've done here, the friends I've made, just brings me to the edge of tearing. Oh well, what's done been done. Hopefully, my decision will benefit me in the long run. And only then will I say "No regrets", with no regrets at all.

The thought of having to face MsTeoh tomorrow is... scary. I don't know how am I gonna face her, though there's nothing that I've done wrong other than... disappointing her by leaving. Oh boy. Seeing Eirene give Charlene a hug today almost made me cry, and Clara's words were so touching I could only say "Awwww don't like that leh".

"You two are my favourite juniors."

Trina's comments were comforting though. (: Andrea (aka Audrey), please don't be angry with me. I love you forever and ever! As a friend, of course.

Oh shit why has this turned into a semi-farewell post? -_-

Anyway, headed over to NUS to catch the juniors' match. I was still on the bus when the 3rd quarter started, so ended up hopping down and hailing a cab. WL waste money right. Cos they won by a huge margin, and after I reached it was quite boring as there wasnt much I could do.

Subway with some of the netballers after that. I never had this kind of fun in a looooong time, ever since I left Cedar Netball. It felt really good to be "back" experiencing everything again. Those times with the team are just so unforgettable and how I wish I could relive them all now. But that'll never happen ofc. So we caught up on some ummm recent issues, laughed, joked, teased. And now I remember how its like to embarrass myself in public and yet not give a damn. Hahah. Truly loved every second of it. (:

2008-01-27T14:53:00.001+08:00

There's this one thing that the people in VJ love to say:

LIFE SUCKS.

2008-01-27T03:23:00.000+08:00

Will I be better able to cope with my studies in NJ?
Will I be able to make the type of friends that I've made in VJ, when I go to NJ?
Or will life still be the same there, excluding the difference in culture?

Will I be happy?
Will I regret?

Should I just stay?

OhmygoodnessI'msofickle-mindedIcantmakeupmymindHELPZ.

2008-01-26T19:49:00.001+08:00

Ohman, Noel's words are so touching I feel like crying. ):

noel says:
eh i'll seriously remember u leh..
noel says:
i know mayb u nv like me alot la
noel says:
bt i'll remember u
!Wshan_ I must be crazy. says:
HUH
noel says:
the cedar girl who keeps chasing me off
!Wshan_ I must be crazy. says:
eh i didn't say i nv like u!
!Wshan_ I must be crazy. says:
nonsense
!Wshan_ I must be crazy. says:
i just think you're funny! haha
!Wshan_ I must be crazy. says:
huh? chase you off?
!Wshan_ I must be crazy. says:
OI! IDIOT i never ok
noel says:
haha
noel says:
aiya yaaa
noel says:
will u remember me

OMG i really she bu de leave. How?

2008-01-26T15:03:00.000+08:00

My fking brother and his irresponsible usage of the computer caused the comp to break down which forced me to do system recovery, thus ALL MY FILES ARE WIPED OUT. My pictures, entire song library, documents, EVERYTHING! Ohmygod can you hear my heart breaking into pieces?

I've got to start saving up for my own laptop from now on. I mean, my files are practically my everything! ):

As for now, I'm wasting precious time to set up the internet connection, reinstall all the programs one by one, and godknowswhat.

Oh, NJ's my choice in the end.
It'll be hard leaving VJ, but its all for the good of my studies in the long run. ): Somehow, I wished I hadn't grown close to so many people in VJ coz its really saddening to have to forgo the chance of getting to know them better. Some of whom I thought would be my friends for life. Oh well.

2008-01-25T14:46:00.000+08:00

I can't bear to leave 08s46, this perfect class that can't get any better.
I can't bear to say "Bye" to Andrea, my awesome teammate! And the other netballers.
Oh no, how?
HOWWWWWWWWW.

NJ. VJ.
Choose one.

2008-01-25T10:56:00.000+08:00

Bibbo is so true, its more stressful for me to choose the JC I want to be in than getting back my results. My hair's gonna turn white if i continue worrying like this for the next 2 days.

I've met so many wonderful people in VJ, its kind of hard to just leave like that. Namely,

The netballers: "Audrey", Sherlene, Clara, Eirene
My classmates: Estee, Deb, Steph, Andy, CK, Edward, Polarbear, Haoran & the rest.

But where do friends stand when this decision concerns my future?

And it seems inevitable that I'll have to stay in netball if i do choose VJ in the end.

ARGH.

DILEMMA.
DILEMMA.
DILEMMA!

2008-01-24T22:50:00.000+08:00

So, results are out. Can't say I'm elated, nor sad. Its an incomprehensible feeling atm; did well in some subjects but the others were shockingly bad. The first look at my results slip got me stunned & in disbelief.

History: B3. "Miss Lizah, I'm really sorry" but she was so nice & understanding about it made me feel worse. She even said, "I should have taught you how to strategize." I know I'd tried my best for history.

Physics: A2. Secretly dismissing Physics as a straight-A1 subject is a lesson for me. I know its really wrong to have been so complacent about it, that noone should even have this kind of attitude in the first place. You deserve it, weishan.

SSgeog was *PHEW*, and I'm definitely thankful for my English & HCL grades. Went straight up to the MT room & gave Yulao a big hug. (: I know its Jiang that saved my chinese, but I still love Yulao no matter what. All the not-handing-in-homework crap, she has had so much to tolerate about me. Love her loads!

Sidenote: I realise that after going through primary & secondary sch life, CHINESE teachers are the ones that leave the greatest impact and most lasting impression on me.

Was stuck between staying in VJ and moving to TJ, and still am now. Oh well.

Enough of all this talk about results. Photos!

One of the breaks. (We're always eating in between lessons)

Hahah polarbear.

Mengmeng made me take this! (:

Hoho steph's expression makes me laugh. :D

Chem lab. We have a freaking HIP teacher. :P

S46: THIS BUNCH OF PEOPLE ROCK MY LIFE! Even though it has only been 3 weeks since we met, hee.

Cedar's holding site.

Prata with my beloved teammates after that. 27 Dresses with Louise and Joy, which was good! Met Ely, Yusin, Jennifer & Wanping in the theatre; they were sitting right in front of us. Before that, We saw Connie, Xiuxian and Yanling. Yanling was searching for happy movies. Hahah.

THE DAY MSTEOH SAID "YES":

I was among the highest in class. Awesomez.

CLARA! She's really "zai" on stage every assembly. Hahah.

CLOSE UP!

HAHAHAH! :D

Alright mum's back. Bye!

2008-01-22T23:00:00.001+08:00

Shit I'm dreading Thursday.

2008-01-20T18:48:00.000+08:00

I just blew $97.50. Online. Yes, ONLINE! That's for CNY, though I hardly go out during the festive season, budden I hope I wont have to drag myself out the next weekend in search of common and over-priced clothes again. LJ is the best thing that has happened to me after... Bizclub. Hahah.

Anyway, I went to CP to pick up some necessities just now, AND GUESS WHAT my freaking bucket bag was on display at one of those tiny pushcart stores in the basement! Ah! So many of them in all sorts of sizes! So much for going against the flow... Bucket bags are practically everywhere now. Pfft. )<

Dinner.
Run.
Econs.
Chem.

Bloody chem i hate chem. (atm)
Just because...

2008-01-18T11:37:00.000+08:00

Trainings are killing me.
Not that they are very tough, just that I reach home really late (like 10-11? cos VJ is so fking far) and by then I'd be too tired to get started on my work which as a result, I can't catch up with what's being taught in class. I'll lie on my bed, promising myself "5min, 5min" and by the time I wake up it'll be time to go to school. T_T

Ms(whatshername) our chem tutor had me do a question from the tutorial on the board, which I didn't do and didn't understand, and it served as a warning for me to get fired up asap and a question to whether VJ is really the right place for me.

And I always get sick due to lack of sleep. Which I am, now.

I love VJ, but looking at the way things are going, how worthy will it be for me to stay? Marginal benefits. Opportunity costs.

Okay, back to lighter things.

Yuhan (fish-cold,rain-winter) is super funny, which is something I realised during training. Koped from debbie: "She needs a wheelchair." And it was during house meeting (PEGASUS!) yesterday that I saw the not-sleepy and enthu side of her! Which equates to shocking. Hahah. Despite putting my name down with Estee I dont think I'll run for house comm, cos the workload's crazyyyy. And the question also lies in whether I CAN and am up to it.

I've a habit (or problem) of remembering people's names by manipulating them.
I call Andrea "Audrey", Yuhan "Yunhan", Therese "Teresa" and Yixiu "Pingxiu". Wth.

Oh yes the new barricades are classy classics. Maroon, silver and white. Hope ~~MsTeoh~~MrsLim orders them soon!

Dinner with "Audrey" after training, met Edward at busstop.

That's about it.
Need to pay the doc a visit now. Bbz.

2008-01-14T22:39:00.000+08:00

Fking tired.
Lectures, Tutorials, Subway with Estee+Deb, training, PT, 3.3km, Compass Point.

Ain't got a hint about what's being taught in class, and i desperately need the time to read through the notes and books but there's training like everyday, things going on everytime, OMG stressed.

Must finish collating by tonight.
Chem tutorial + read notes&tb.
Ec tutorial + read notes&tb.
Physics - everything.

I sense another sleepless night for today.

BTW I LURVEEEE 08S46!

2008-01-13T01:17:00.001+08:00

Came online to collate the physics ppt but I'm still talking to Debs! T_T

Met Shisi Jie for a little shopping trip today. Accompanied her to her Incat office at Shenton Way before that, and boy, wasn't I impressed. The office quarters are so intimidating and impersonal (in other words boring but nvrm), just the way I like it. The view for the building is awesome, that of the future IR and the seas beyond it.

Dinner and town. The new collections don't seem to show that its Spring. Full of gloomy dark colours = dull shit.

Alright, time to get bz now.

2008-01-12T12:53:00.000+08:00

PT yesterday was good (except static). Good in the sense that I feel more physically fit now. Hahah. But all efforts were lost after we had dinner. My goodness, I ate like a pig. And thanks Charlene for the tempura ice-cream! (: Don't we love OKO as well!

Dinnerbuddies couldn't make it for dinner yesterday! Boo. ):

Btw, Steph rocks! Thanks for your help and you'd better be able to make it to BizClub. :D

[postnote]
Met Joy, Anan and Kaiqi at Parkway yesterday! We were like screaming when we saw each other! Hahah. I miss Joyo!

And, I didn't go for floorball trials in the end. The thought of being in 2 sport ccas is insane. "SO SAD LAH", cannot see ------ that often anymore!

2008-01-10T22:23:00.000+08:00

Crapz, lectures are boring.

Cedar's groupings are out. I think the first round shouldn't pose much as a hurdle for them. NATS TOP 4! That's how confident I am in my juniors.

Made an impulse decision to attend floorball trials. With Suni. Hahah. I HOPE I'll get through. And to those very "awesurmzz" teammates of mine, I have no hidden agenda in doing so!

2008-01-09T22:22:00.000+08:00

I THINK I'M A GEEK.

I mean, who else will think that GP rocks?
Pffffffffft, how botherful I need a reinvention.

2008-01-09T20:52:00.000+08:00

I'm lost without a proper constant source of information.

Need an Econs TB.
Need a Chem TB.
Need a Physics TB.

All in all, whether VJ requires them or not, I'm as good as a dumbass without them!

Omgeez the new Cedar is pretty big. Sushi buffet during which Charlene Jessie & me totally stuffed ourselves full. Followed by huge pangs of self-indulgence guilt afterwards. Oh, and Yakult helps in digestion! (:

2008-01-08T23:04:00.000+08:00

Hmm, first day of lessons and we've got quite alot of assignments. Maths, econs and civics. Not to mention revision of chem notes. EEEE first day only.

Anyhoo, I had to go knocking on every classroom door in the morning to find s46 and finally arrived at the correct classroom... when I reached the 2nd last one. Hahah damn it. And I'M THE ONLY CEDARIAN! Was kind of disappointed at the beginning but things started to lighten up after a while. Lectures are ... not my thing, but they're quite manageable with the people around me, say Steph Estee Debbie ZiQin Sandra. The girls are super UNITED. Woots!

Don't feel like continuing from here.
Hahah. Oh yeah,
NO TRAINING TMR!
Which also means,
BACK TO CEDARRR! (:

2008-01-07T00:24:00.000+08:00

WHEE SEA REGATTA HERE I COME.

I hope Eirene's crashing later on if not I'll be bored to yawning every 5seconds!

2008-01-06T21:55:00.001+08:00

SRLYS, how many houses (especially a HDB flat) have more than 30 vases accumulated in them? While I'm bag-crazy, mum's vase-mad. T_T

& why is it that I've been having this desire to get out of VJ asap ever since school started? Despite the netballers and how much fun I've been having in this CCA. I hope its just a passing "phase".

Mum encouraged me to skip Sea Regatta tomorrow OMG I can't believe it. She was like "Since you dont like it, then just go for training in the afternoon lo." Oh boy. Its not that I dislike it; I desperately want to join in the fun. Just because...

Goodness, I sound so unenthu.
Box you weishan.

CAN'T WAIT FOR LESSONS TO START.

Okay back to THE NOOSE! Its so hilarious.

2008-01-06T00:29:00.000+08:00

TJ. ):

2008-01-05T11:58:00.000+08:00

I FEEL LIKE SHIT
And I missed the rgs friendly. ):

My fringe/hair is a disaster.
Sometimes I just want to rebond it. Ha. Btw Rainy.Day rebonded his hair OMG i thought only girls do that. Hahah.

Charlene was talking about how sick she felt yesterday, and little did I know that I'd be the one who'll fall ill today. Argh. Saw a doc ytd and it has already burnt a hole in my pocket.

Back to cedar to get the GPA cheque but the woman at the GO said it wasn't ready yet. ARGH. Met Filz, Singyee and Joanna who were with their NPCC juniors. And Nehneh plus the netballers. Hung around for about 5min before rushing off to sch.

Finally completed the Rule of Four. Its a truly AMAZING book, much more interesting and comprehensible than the Da Vinci Code. But now I need to find a new reading companion. I want the Hypnerotomachia (if its even available here), its so mysterious and puzzling in a cool way!

On the phone with Sarah for about an hour at midnight and RJ sounds so... FUN. Fun in a genuine and more logical way, like no cheering every 5minutes or so.

I feel particularly random now...
And I miss netball. ):

Oh oh, Baker's Well blueberry muffins are so good! I'm gonna buy mum some every week after sch! :D Andrea said I'd grow fat if I go to Katong on a regular basis! Ohgawd.

2008-01-03T23:08:00.000+08:00

Thanks Luu for that lovely glittery case and sweets you got from Japan. (:

So, day 2. It was an amazing surprise to find out that Igor was 2nd. Hahah. Highly unexpected. OG was much higher and enthu today hence more fun-filled. After lunch and cca walkabout, hung around at the netball booth and ended up skipping the rest of the activities. Don't like orientation. Heee. After which Andrea & Xueling became my unofficial tour guides and we took a tour around the compound. We walked Xueling out to bs, went to Neptune Court's 7-11, got some food, sat on the swing and talked. Pretty interesting, excluding the unnecessary "gift" of 2 gigantic mozzie bites. Oh we had to hide from Evelyn as well, cos she wanted us back in our OGs. But Naf saw us. :D

Got back in time for debrief, and then OG dinner at CHANGI AIRPORT. Got takeaways and sat at the viewing gallery. Really dark but the lighting & music made the atmosphere kinda romantic. Haa. Was already petered out by then, and OGLs did most of the talking. Bus-ed home with Wu Yue, during which we talked alot.

K thats about it.
I want to sleep.

Oh Eirene's crashing tomorrow and I had initially planned to leave after meeting the j2s, but oh well... At least there's training to look forward to.

Can't wait for orientation to end.
I myself don't know the reason why, but I really do not like it. At all.

2008-01-02T22:37:00.000+08:00

Iclairis.
With Jeralyn.

I was a walking zombie today. DKW. Which didn't do me any good 'cause everyone was supp to be enthu and participating actively in everything but I could hardly stay awake.

Must sleep early.

AND must master the mass dances. (:
AND must get into the appropriate level of enthusiasm by tmr. :D
AND MOZZ IMPTLY, make new friends.

Netball on saturday!

2008-01-01T20:16:00.000+08:00

Goodness Gracious Me.

Don't tell me there's gonna be more than 5 cedarians in Igor.
Omg.

I feel like I'm going back to Cedar already.

2007-12-31T00:23:00.000+08:00

Sarah's Raffles OG name is TAN AH KOW.
OMG HAHAH THIS IS HILARIOUS. (hehe sorry!)

2007-12-31T00:21:00.000+08:00

Oh yes, Syikin and Jaime are in Igor with me! (:
Glad to know that I'll at least see some familiar faces in my OG. Hahah.

2007-12-31T00:14:00.000+08:00

OMFG I JUST THREW AWAY 69BUCKS ON A BLOODY ADIDAS GYM BAG WHICH I PROBABLY WONT USE EXCEPT WHEN I CAMP! (cos its so freaking biggggg)

I hate impulse buys.
Argh.

I need a bag.
A red and black one.

Shit.

On another note, I love my adizeros! (:

RED IS HOT.

2007-12-29T15:21:00.000+08:00

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody?
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry?

Can't you see,
That's the way I feel about you and me?

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking?
Looking down the road you should be taking?

I should know,
'Cos I loved and lost the day I let you go.

Can't you see,
Even though the moment's gone,
I'm still holding on somehow.

I really want to hear you say that you know just how it feels.
To have it all and let it slip away.

2007-12-29T02:03:00.000+08:00

Mum (in a worried tone): Why are you receiving so many weird parcels everyday?

She thought something fishy and bad was happening to me. Hahah.

6Peace outing today. We had fun. That's the most important thing. I'm too lazy to elaborate cos I did a draft on it a while ago but couldn't be bothered to continue from where I'd left off. Must refer to NatWee's blog for details, not much but definitely more than mine.

Pearlyn was an uberloobercrazywillywally who is obssessed over Jas's body, which is "perfect" and "desirable" according to Her Majesty. Hahah. The way she mentioned it was so funny and gay and sick, I still can't believe she actually said that OUT LOUD.

Elaine was a real sotong today, she kept going "Zzzzz..... Big fish!" or "Zzzzz.... Sar!" hahahah. I can still recall the scene when she did it for the first time and everyone fell apart laughing.

Anyway I kind of like that 4-in-1 game that LYY taught us. Sounds like instant coffee, haha whatever.

We headed out into the bloodyhotandglaring sun and suntanned. Tried to but failed, for me. Daryl was so cute he made Pearlyn jealous cos I took more photos of him than her. Hahah.

While Natwee Amanda Pu and I were lazing around and errr swapping bags, Hildafoo and Muisuan the two very intellectual and academically inclined future successful women were deeply engaged in a very profound conversation regarding their academics, goals in life and god knows what else. Hahah. Basically, they couldn't stop talking about exams and blahblahblah lah.

Okay it seems that this is gonna be more detailed than Nat's. Oops.

Headed out to Vivo and we split. Pu left Nat and I at River Island (bloodyhell they were having sales but the items were like crap), and we went round to some other shops and I finally got something in the correct size wahahah. Zara's sales were pretty good and I saw this dress that kept resurfacing in my mind since the first time I saw it (dont know why) and it was on discount but I was quite broke. ): We kept bumping into LYY Tiffy and Jas, who accused us of stalking them but in actual fact it must have been the other way round. Hahah.

Then to town to meet Shisi Jie where we had Sakae (i had it for lunch too OMG) and walked around looking for my bloody pencilcase. The options at Borders were kind of depleted but I was running out of time so had to choose the nicest of the not-so-nice ones.

I can't stop "bloody"-ing OMG what the hell is happening to me.

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2007-12-27T15:29:00.000+08:00

Strange thing, time.
It weighs on those who have it least.
Nothing is lighter than being young,
With the world on your shoulders;
It gives you a feeling of possibility so seductive,
You know there must be something more important you could be doing
Than studying for exams.

The past two days at work were hilarious.
Tuesday: I'd burst out laughing everytime I see Clement. Which I don't know why cos the bag thing wasn't THAT funny.
Wednesday: Some unstraight stuff about Ruey Yi and Simon. OMG that was hilarious. And Zhixiong was so lameeeeee. I bet he's jealous Simon likes RY more than him.

4 MORE DAYS AT WORK. (:
6 MORE DAYS TO ORIENTATION! :D

2007-12-26T01:30:00.001+08:00

OKAY MY MOM'S GOING TO KILL ME.

2007-12-24T23:44:00.000+08:00

HELL,O.

I'm drained. Totally.

Friendly today was awesome, mainly 'cos I got to see everyone again! (: Anyway it kind of reminded me about one thing that I hated about c.netball: the immense pressure to play well. Its possible to collapse under that kind of stress, and thinking back, I really hated this period of time last year.

Anyway, I had a great time though the time spent there had to be cut short. And the building's so neglected now, the condition its in kind of grossed me out. Hahah. I'm still clueless about where the holding site is!

I'm laughing to myself now cos the image of Clement carrying the delivery bag as a tote is hilarious. He really looked like aunty can! Hahah. And how he responded when I told him that was even funnier.

Wow, its almost 12 but I'm still alone at home!

2007-12-22T00:39:00.001+08:00

I LOVE BUCKET BAGS! (x

2007-12-21T01:16:00.000+08:00

My mission of preventing plagiarism has failed. 'Cos locking myself from the (er...) cyberworld just because of one person is a really stupid and immature thing to do.

Tut tut. Nevermind.

I THINK...
I've changed quite alot. In both positive and negative ways.
You know that when you don't have a feel of who you are anymore, and you're always doubting whether your actions are genuinely "you".

Darn, it sounds like I need to go on a pilgrimage or some kind of religious thing to "rediscover myself" and "find out the real me". Not that I'm a very religious person, in fact I never was. Burning joss sticks bears only one meaning to me: I'm contributing to global warming.

WHAT IS THE PURPOSE OF BURNING JOSS STICKS? The Gods up there (if that's where they are) should send a heavenly message to us mortals to change our way of communication to them divine beings, for the better of the environment. Hence, the better of us. So we won't die earlier because of more crop failures (starvation), higher sea levels (shortage of land)or hotter weather (heat stress?). Wow I feel so smart. Not.

Talking nonsense here. Buhbye.

Shit I've been outbidded in For One More Day by 10 cents. Back to the auctions! Hahah.

2007-12-21T00:00:00.000+08:00

McFly is rocking my eardrums at this very moment! (:

Arggghhh tomorrow's training is cancelled! I'm a netball freak and I want more!

I'm sick of my job, its boring beyond belief and I can't wait for school to reopen, for everything work-related to end! AAAAAHHHHHHHHHH HURRY UP. 11 MORE DAYS!

We've yet to go to the zoo.
Am still in need of a pencilcase, and school shoes.
Just finished Avalon High and bought some books online.
6peace gathering.
Friendlies! With cedar, esp. I miss c.netball truckloads!
I want to watch I Am Legend, Juno and Alvin&theChipmunks!

SARRRAAHHHH I don't know if you're reading this, but I want to slack/hangout/sleep at your house again! Hehehe.

I guess that's all! Ttfn.

2007-12-19T00:47:00.000+08:00

I WANT LONG HAIR!!!!

2007-12-19T00:11:00.000+08:00

When I read her blog, I STILL feel like I'm reading mine.

Can't stand it anymore.

I'M GONNA LOCK MY BLOG.

2007-12-18T23:35:00.001+08:00

Thank goodness Nehnehnair made me go to RGS, thank goodness I walked past MNG, thank goodness I came across that pair of black pants (with pockets at the front&back) which I needed so badly. And thank goodness they were having SALES!

Hahah. Out with Louise today. I was late so I had to treat her, and we went to Thai Express hoping to see Eugenia/Weiting at work but they weren't. ): Anyway Luu wanted to get school stuffs but we ended up with nothing school-related at all. I spent a bomb and I really like that blue dress. I sound as if I'm no stranger to wearing dresses but don't be fooled, I'm a boyish girl hahahah.

We went to Parkway Parade at night to collect (crazy)Louise's Levis and Joy joined us there. But couldn't find any of the metal cases at Borders. Damnit.

I think getting new netball/sport shoes instead of Onitsuka Tigers is more practical for next year.

2007-12-17T00:11:00.001+08:00

WHY?
WHY WHY WHY?

Weishan can't help it.
She's supposed to be happy for a certain someone.
But no, she's being plagued by waves of disgust and bitterness instead.
She's so mean & selfish to harbour hopes that the result would not turn out like this.
Simply because she doesn't want to see that someone again.

):

I feel horribleterriblevegetable!

2007-12-16T23:37:00.000+08:00

Wasabi de Shoyu EDP, anyone?
FOC at SakaeSushi. Hahah, gross. (x

Argh I've got an itchybitchy mosquito bite.

There's training tomorrow. I really want to be there, so I really really really hope I'll be able to WAKE UP in time! Alarm clocks beside my pillow, under the bed, on the table, etc etc!

I love busy days at work. Makes me feel useful and my brain cells don't die in vain. Hahah.

YAY back-to-school shopping with louise on tuesday!

Sarah's coming back tomorrow and she's bringing DUNKIN' DONUTS from taiwan! I know donuts and taiwan sound weird together, ahh whatever. Yippee I'm a happy girl for the rest of the week. :D

I'm rambling.
The truth is, I forgot what I wanted to say in the first place.

ALERTALERT:
16 DAYS TO 1ST DAY OF SCHOOL! :D

Postnote: Oh shoot. I've forgotten all about reading Hitler's Mein Kampf during the holidays! But am in no mood for political chimology now. Boooo.

2007-12-15T14:11:00.000+08:00

Singapore's service industry is still living in the colonial era.

That's my conclusion after talking to Fatmah.

2007-12-15T13:42:00.000+08:00

Did i mention that Enchanted's Movie OST is THE BOMBZ?
Ohmygod, the tracks are damn good! I never knew Carrie Underwood was more than a country singer!

2007-12-15T00:49:00.000+08:00

Hello, I don't have anything to blog about. Just adding some random bits to make my previous post disappear from view.

Poisonivy (coughscoughs) wasn't here today. (:

Sticks & Stones by Ride Your Bike is stuck in my head.

I want to go to the zoo badly. Hope Joy and Louise aren't pissed with me for delaying, or when I'll be free only after 1st January. :P

I skipped vj training today. Buried my alarm clock under my pillow and it suffocated to death. Sleep seemed much more important at 5.30 in the morning.

I miss the person living on the 10th floor. ):

Have yet to attend juniors' training... since O's ended. Loser.

Poisonivy will be present tomorrow. I'm "anticipating" hell.

My diet these days has been bread and more bread. Especially Swee Heng Bakery's bread at the place I work at.

I recently discovered that I have a weird craving for chocolate when my mood's down in the dumps.

I secretly can't wait for school to start. Cos it means my job will end which indicates no more poisonivy again. Hehe.

I wish that my hair will grow by 10cm when I sleep tonight. Its so short I think strangers have a hard time differentiating my sex.

I can't wait for Sarah to be back from the Kuo Min Tang land.

I hope Bibbo's phone will be returned to her soon.

I MISS MY FRIENDS! ):

2007-12-14T02:08:00.001+08:00

I shall feign ignorance.
I shall stay strong & neutral.
I shall not be deterred.
By you & your nauseating acts.

And most importantly, I must/can/will constantly remind myself that
NOONE IS PERFECT & I SHOULD LOOK TOWARDS OTHERS' GOOD POINTS INSTEAD OF THEIR FLAWS.
Oh damn, but sometimes its hard to let those dinky flaws distract me. They are so... obvious. Tsk.

Btw, some things went horribly bad (for me) at work today. Or should I say yesterday. The "true" colors of a certain person have finally been displayed in full view, and I must admit that I was really fuming mad at the beginning. But after some thought & small talk with my mom, its better to stomach it all and remain positive.

Afterall,
REALITY IS CRUEL.

Its sad & demoralising though. I go to work each day, all prepared to give my 100% no matter how insignificant each task is and hoping that I'll make as few mistakes as possible. But its never enough for her, and it seems that her level of perfection has no limits. ): Sometimes, she really should have a clear understanding of the whole situation before making any judgements, cos who knows she might scold for the wrong reasons.

Okay, to the bed. Must wake up in... 3 hours' time.

2007-12-13T12:25:00.001+08:00

Louise: "OKAY! Let's go to global affairs society! :D "

WHAT!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!???!

2007-12-13T12:11:00.001+08:00

Hello, I'll be in another Cedar. I'm saying this 'coz i found out that there are indeed alot of cedarians going there. This... doesn't feel good. Even though there's netball.

Argh, hell, just count yourself fortunate to have been able to get in there okay. Sillybilly.

I WANT MORE TRAININGS! (on courtwork)

I'll stand tall this time round.
Not a chance will you get to step all over me.
Watch out. YOU.

2007-12-11T14:11:00.001+08:00

YAY! x1000.

I'm off for the 3rd consecutive day, and I'm just so elated. And relaxed. I can finally get a bloody haircut without having to rush off to another place the minute I'm done.

Didn't go for training today coz... I woke up late. Boo. But, silver lining in the clouds - its PHYSICAL training on tuesday. :D

I know my initial plan for the holidays was to work my ass off and earn as much $ as possible, but now the idea of going to work for just 4hours simply turns me off. Its a brainless job which doesn't require much thinking and I don't like leaving my brain cells to die just like that. From next monday to the 1st of Jan will be the most gruelling days of my Dec holis. Coz I'll be working FULL days and omggggg can die lah.

I'm quite bored now. Reaching the end of the 3rd (& last) book that Sarah lent me on Thursday and after that I won't have anything else to read. Except that book of Econs essays but its like reading Greek and when I resume reading whatsthepage, I won't even remember what was mentioned in the 1st. Argh.

Oooh, 2 more days and the posting results will be out.
:]

2007-12-08T16:00:00.000+08:00

OMG I'M SEEING GREEEEN.
Nehneh saw J at some carnival at KNC and they kept smiling at each other! OMGZZZZ I'M SO JEALOUS LAH! Dammmmmmmmmmmmit I should have popped by! Hahahah.

2007-12-08T02:23:00.000+08:00

SWITCHFOOT'S COMING TO S'PORE!
JAN 31
MAX PAVILION
Tix @ $70, $80, $90!

Omg hello hello can someone go with me? :D

2007-12-08T01:42:00.000+08:00

(story)Books are the only things that'll keep me away from the comp. Must keep that in mind when future exams are around the corner.

I'm halfway through this book now and its supposed to be the next "Harry Potter" but there's nothing exceptionally magical about it though the plot is pretty intriguing. Or maybe its too early to make judgements since I'm not done with it yet.

Met Sarah yesterday and we caught Enchanted which I thought was REALLY retarded and unrealistic at first, but after a while it got interesting. The music is wayyyyyyyy cool right right. I want the soundtrack! Then we hung around in wisma/nac before I went to meet Charlene.

I hugged my grandma for the first time in my life today. Its time to learn how to appreciate and treasure my loved ones when they are still around. (wow how mature... coughs coughs)

It stinks being a busy working bee during the holidays. ): When I flip open the papers, the word "SALES" is like practically flashing from every corner of the page. Damn sad lah.

OK my phone suddenly vibrated and it totally freaked me out. A bibbo just sent me an indecipherable message. I think she's half-conscious atm.

I realised i'm being very random.
TTFN. (:

i DO NOT miss you

2007-12-06T00:25:00.000+08:00

I (barely) survived, and the ball didn't hit me in the face! :D But I somehow forgot that a netball game actually has defenders and my shooting is way off now. Boo. Anyway i kept doing one-and-a-half-step and i think that's really bad. All in all, the VJ netballers are really nice, especially Shiwen cos w/o her i would have been like a lost soul. Can't wait for the next training!

It was damn busy at sakae today. The fax machine sort of conked out and the deliveries couldn't get to us. And when everything was fixed, we had to handle a bunch of deliveries at one go and it was like crazzyyy but it made me HIGH! Hahah, yeah wth.

I wanna go shoppinggggg. ):

2007-12-05T02:27:00.000+08:00

Oh no I'm supposed to wake up in 3hours' time.

I loveee my other half. XOXO.
We sidetracked to that topic unknowingly, and now she's gone to sleep and I feel so uber sad now. I can cry anytime at this moment, but no I'm not a crybaby. (:

The truth is: I still can't let go.
i'm trying i'm trying i'm trying

Goodniggggghhtttt. (or morning)

2007-12-05T00:17:00.000+08:00

Boo I'm such a short fuse.

I'm superduper nervous. The netball feels foreign in my hand now, so I hope I won't malu myself tomorrow. :X The worst picture will be that I get hit in the face by the netball, which is quite possible.