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Sunday, July 29, 2007 @ 12:40 PM I've been pondering over it ever since the day i received the 'news'. I don't know how to set things right again, cos every one of my actions will be deemed as fake. Since i've already been labelled as the one who can only focus on one friend at a time, what a load of crap. I was hoping that letting things happen naturally would improve the situation, but the time this is happening did not permit. I haven't been talking to you. Even exchanging a 'hi' or seeing you around is rare. I wanted to, like give you a call or simply just IM, but you dont seem to care (given the amount of attention you get and the number of friends you have) and i was afraid that i'll get a stale response. There are so many rumours i want to clarify, especially those that you've heard from others around you. I'm a tad too late i know; you've already believed those assumptions that others have somehow twisted into facts. I dont know how, given my limited ability of persuasion, to change your mindset about the kind of person i am, cos i'm sure the image you have of me now is totally different from what was in the past. I just want to let you know, that regardless of whatever i have told others or what they have said to you, i am not one who will abandon friends just because i've 'found a better one'. This is the most atrocious thing one can ever say about me, and i was really hurt when i found out you thought that way. You're one of the bestest friends i've ever had in my four years in cedar. Three, for you. There are so many things you've done for me that i'm eternally grateful for. Too many to be named, but every single one of which i'll remember. Tell me, how am i gonna be your friend again? I'm willing to go to all lengths to save this friendship. Provided that you still want to be mine. I miss everything that we've done together, the names we call each other, just everything, every single second we've spent with the others (though those might not mean anything to you, but they matter alot to me). So much that i just want to run up and hug you whenever i see you, but i dont think that's allowed, so all i can do is turn away. I MISS YOU. ): |