 [ WEISHAN ] July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 |
Thursday, January 31, 2008 @ 10:52 PM Xueling: "I still cant believe you're leaving." Netball training today was good. Meaning fun and enjoyable. HAPPINESS circuit training, court game and conditioning. The first thing that came to my mind when I looked at the netballers laughing and chatting together was: I shouldn't have come. It'll make it so hard to leave when the time comes. ): Yining asked if I would join netball in NJ. Definitely not, I said. The reason behind it is that I dont think I can be loyal to any other netball team in jc, other than VJ's. I just love VJ Netball so damn much. Cut my hair today and it fking SUCKS. I look like a little boy! Not proud of that. And then Jasmine smeared a whole load of LUCIDOL WAX on my hair (wanted to help MAKE IT NICER) and I had to go around with fuglier-thann-the-already-fugly hair the entire training. Argh. I had to hide from CK who was at the tennis courts when Yuhan PURPOSELY yelled his name. WL throw face can. I don't want to invite unnecessary mocking laughter! I'm so screwed up for Chinese New Year. & have no idea how I'm gonna face my classmates tmr. Monday, January 28, 2008 @ 10:03 PM TIRED. JAE was officially over at 4pm today. NJ. If you ask me "No regrets?", I'd say "I don't know". Yet. Am looking forward to meeting new people in a new (& foreign) environment, but VJ I'll miss, I'll miss. Thinking about everything that I've done here, the friends I've made, just brings me to the edge of tearing. Oh well, what's done been done. Hopefully, my decision will benefit me in the long run. And only then will I say "No regrets", with no regrets at all. The thought of having to face MsTeoh tomorrow is... scary. I don't know how am I gonna face her, though there's nothing that I've done wrong other than... disappointing her by leaving. Oh boy. Seeing Eirene give Charlene a hug today almost made me cry, and Clara's words were so touching I could only say "Awwww don't like that leh". "You two are my favourite juniors." Trina's comments were comforting though. (: Andrea (aka Audrey), please don't be angry with me. I love you forever and ever! As a friend, of course. Oh shit why has this turned into a semi-farewell post? -_- Anyway, headed over to NUS to catch the juniors' match. I was still on the bus when the 3rd quarter started, so ended up hopping down and hailing a cab. WL waste money right. Cos they won by a huge margin, and after I reached it was quite boring as there wasnt much I could do. Subway with some of the netballers after that. I never had this kind of fun in a looooong time, ever since I left Cedar Netball. It felt really good to be "back" experiencing everything again. Those times with the team are just so unforgettable and how I wish I could relive them all now. But that'll never happen ofc. So we caught up on some ummm recent issues, laughed, joked, teased. And now I remember how its like to embarrass myself in public and yet not give a damn. Hahah. Truly loved every second of it. (:            Sunday, January 27, 2008 @ 2:53 PM There's this one thing that the people in VJ love to say: LIFE SUCKS. @ 3:23 AM Will I be better able to cope with my studies in NJ? Will I be able to make the type of friends that I've made in VJ, when I go to NJ? Or will life still be the same there, excluding the difference in culture? Will I be happy? Will I regret? Should I just stay? OhmygoodnessI'msofickle-mindedIcantmakeupmymindHELPZ. Saturday, January 26, 2008 @ 7:49 PM Ohman, Noel's words are so touching I feel like crying. ): noel says: eh i'll seriously remember u leh.. noel says: i know mayb u nv like me alot la noel says: bt i'll remember u !Wshan_ I must be crazy. says: HUH noel says: the cedar girl who keeps chasing me off !Wshan_ I must be crazy. says: eh i didn't say i nv like u! !Wshan_ I must be crazy. says: nonsense !Wshan_ I must be crazy. says: i just think you're funny! haha !Wshan_ I must be crazy. says: huh? chase you off? !Wshan_ I must be crazy. says: OI! IDIOT i never ok noel says: haha noel says: aiya yaaa noel says: will u remember me OMG i really she bu de leave. How? @ 3:03 PM My fking brother and his irresponsible usage of the computer caused the comp to break down which forced me to do system recovery, thus ALL MY FILES ARE WIPED OUT. My pictures, entire song library, documents, EVERYTHING! Ohmygod can you hear my heart breaking into pieces? I've got to start saving up for my own laptop from now on. I mean, my files are practically my everything! ): As for now, I'm wasting precious time to set up the internet connection, reinstall all the programs one by one, and godknowswhat. Oh, NJ's my choice in the end. It'll be hard leaving VJ, but its all for the good of my studies in the long run. ): Somehow, I wished I hadn't grown close to so many people in VJ coz its really saddening to have to forgo the chance of getting to know them better. Some of whom I thought would be my friends for life. Oh well. Friday, January 25, 2008 @ 2:46 PM I can't bear to leave 08s46, this perfect class that can't get any better. I can't bear to say "Bye" to Andrea, my awesome teammate! And the other netballers. Oh no, how? HOWWWWWWWWW. NJ. VJ. Choose one. @ 10:56 AM Bibbo is so true, its more stressful for me to choose the JC I want to be in than getting back my results. My hair's gonna turn white if i continue worrying like this for the next 2 days. I've met so many wonderful people in VJ, its kind of hard to just leave like that. Namely, The netballers: "Audrey", Sherlene, Clara, Eirene My classmates: Estee, Deb, Steph, Andy, CK, Edward, Polarbear, Haoran & the rest. But where do friends stand when this decision concerns my future? And it seems inevitable that I'll have to stay in netball if i do choose VJ in the end. ARGH. DILEMMA. DILEMMA. DILEMMA! Thursday, January 24, 2008 @ 10:50 PM So, results are out. Can't say I'm elated, nor sad. Its an incomprehensible feeling atm; did well in some subjects but the others were shockingly bad. The first look at my results slip got me stunned & in disbelief. History: B3. "Miss Lizah, I'm really sorry" but she was so nice & understanding about it made me feel worse. She even said, "I should have taught you how to strategize." I know I'd tried my best for history. Physics: A2. Secretly dismissing Physics as a straight-A1 subject is a lesson for me. I know its really wrong to have been so complacent about it, that noone should even have this kind of attitude in the first place. You deserve it, weishan. SSgeog was *PHEW*, and I'm definitely thankful for my English & HCL grades. Went straight up to the MT room & gave Yulao a big hug. (: I know its Jiang that saved my chinese, but I still love Yulao no matter what. All the not-handing-in-homework crap, she has had so much to tolerate about me. Love her loads! Sidenote: I realise that after going through primary & secondary sch life, CHINESE teachers are the ones that leave the greatest impact and most lasting impression on me. Was stuck between staying in VJ and moving to TJ, and still am now. Oh well. Enough of all this talk about results. Photos!  One of the breaks. (We're always eating in between lessons)  Hahah polarbear.  Mengmeng made me take this! (:   Hoho steph's expression makes me laugh. :D    Chem lab. We have a freaking HIP teacher. :P  S46: THIS BUNCH OF PEOPLE ROCK MY LIFE! Even though it has only been 3 weeks since we met, hee.  Cedar's holding site.       Prata with my beloved teammates after that. 27 Dresses with Louise and Joy, which was good! Met Ely, Yusin, Jennifer & Wanping in the theatre; they were sitting right in front of us. Before that, We saw Connie, Xiuxian and Yanling. Yanling was searching for happy movies. Hahah. THE DAY MSTEOH SAID "YES":   I was among the highest in class. Awesomez.  CLARA! She's really "zai" on stage every assembly. Hahah.         CLOSE UP!    HAHAHAH! :D Alright mum's back. Bye! Tuesday, January 22, 2008 @ 11:00 PM Shit I'm dreading Thursday. Sunday, January 20, 2008 @ 6:48 PM I just blew $97.50. Online. Yes, ONLINE! That's for CNY, though I hardly go out during the festive season, budden I hope I wont have to drag myself out the next weekend in search of common and over-priced clothes again. LJ is the best thing that has happened to me after... Bizclub. Hahah. Anyway, I went to CP to pick up some necessities just now, AND GUESS WHAT my freaking bucket bag was on display at one of those tiny pushcart stores in the basement! Ah! So many of them in all sorts of sizes! So much for going against the flow... Bucket bags are practically everywhere now. Pfft. )< Dinner. Run. Econs. Chem. Bloody chem i hate chem. (atm) Just because... Friday, January 18, 2008 @ 11:37 AM Trainings are killing me. Not that they are very tough, just that I reach home really late (like 10-11? cos VJ is so fking far) and by then I'd be too tired to get started on my work which as a result, I can't catch up with what's being taught in class. I'll lie on my bed, promising myself "5min, 5min" and by the time I wake up it'll be time to go to school. T_T Ms(whatshername) our chem tutor had me do a question from the tutorial on the board, which I didn't do and didn't understand, and it served as a warning for me to get fired up asap and a question to whether VJ is really the right place for me. And I always get sick due to lack of sleep. Which I am, now. I love VJ, but looking at the way things are going, how worthy will it be for me to stay? Marginal benefits. Opportunity costs. Okay, back to lighter things. Yuhan (fish-cold,rain-winter) is super funny, which is something I realised during training. Koped from debbie: "She needs a wheelchair." And it was during house meeting (PEGASUS!) yesterday that I saw the not-sleepy and enthu side of her! Which equates to shocking. Hahah. Despite putting my name down with Estee I dont think I'll run for house comm, cos the workload's crazyyyy. And the question also lies in whether I CAN and am up to it. I've a habit (or problem) of remembering people's names by manipulating them. I call Andrea "Audrey", Yuhan "Yunhan", Therese "Teresa" and Yixiu "Pingxiu". Wth. Oh yes the new barricades are classy classics. Maroon, silver and white. Hope Dinner with "Audrey" after training, met Edward at busstop. That's about it. Need to pay the doc a visit now. Bbz. Monday, January 14, 2008 @ 10:39 PM Fking tired. Lectures, Tutorials, Subway with Estee+Deb, training, PT, 3.3km, Compass Point. Ain't got a hint about what's being taught in class, and i desperately need the time to read through the notes and books but there's training like everyday, things going on everytime, OMG stressed. Must finish collating by tonight. Chem tutorial + read notes&tb. Ec tutorial + read notes&tb. Physics - everything. I sense another sleepless night for today. BTW I LURVEEEE 08S46! Sunday, January 13, 2008 @ 1:17 AM Came online to collate the physics ppt but I'm still talking to Debs! T_T Met Shisi Jie for a little shopping trip today. Accompanied her to her Incat office at Shenton Way before that, and boy, wasn't I impressed. The office quarters are so intimidating and impersonal (in other words boring but nvrm), just the way I like it. The view for the building is awesome, that of the future IR and the seas beyond it. Dinner and town. The new collections don't seem to show that its Spring. Full of gloomy dark colours = dull shit. Alright, time to get bz now. Saturday, January 12, 2008 @ 12:53 PM PT yesterday was good (except static). Good in the sense that I feel more physically fit now. Hahah. But all efforts were lost after we had dinner. My goodness, I ate like a pig. And thanks Charlene for the tempura ice-cream! (: Don't we love OKO as well! Dinnerbuddies couldn't make it for dinner yesterday! Boo. ): Btw, Steph rocks! Thanks for your help and you'd better be able to make it to BizClub. :D [postnote] Met Joy, Anan and Kaiqi at Parkway yesterday! We were like screaming when we saw each other! Hahah. I miss Joyo! And, I didn't go for floorball trials in the end. The thought of being in 2 sport ccas is insane. "SO SAD LAH", cannot see ------ that often anymore! Thursday, January 10, 2008 @ 10:23 PM Crapz, lectures are boring. Cedar's groupings are out. I think the first round shouldn't pose much as a hurdle for them. NATS TOP 4! That's how confident I am in my juniors. Made an impulse decision to attend floorball trials. With Suni. Hahah. I HOPE I'll get through. And to those very "awesurmzz" teammates of mine, I have no hidden agenda in doing so! Wednesday, January 9, 2008 @ 10:22 PM I THINK I'M A GEEK. I mean, who else will think that GP rocks? Pffffffffft, how botherful I need a reinvention. @ 8:52 PM I'm lost without a proper constant source of information. Need an Econs TB. Need a Chem TB. Need a Physics TB. All in all, whether VJ requires them or not, I'm as good as a dumbass without them! Omgeez the new Cedar is pretty big. Sushi buffet during which Charlene Jessie & me totally stuffed ourselves full. Followed by huge pangs of self-indulgence guilt afterwards. Oh, and Yakult helps in digestion! (: Tuesday, January 8, 2008 @ 11:04 PM Hmm, first day of lessons and we've got quite alot of assignments. Maths, econs and civics. Not to mention revision of chem notes. EEEE first day only. Anyhoo, I had to go knocking on every classroom door in the morning to find s46 and finally arrived at the correct classroom... when I reached the 2nd last one. Hahah damn it. And I'M THE ONLY CEDARIAN! Was kind of disappointed at the beginning but things started to lighten up after a while. Lectures are ... not my thing, but they're quite manageable with the people around me, say Steph Estee Debbie ZiQin Sandra. The girls are super UNITED. Woots! Don't feel like continuing from here. Hahah. Oh yeah, NO TRAINING TMR! Which also means, BACK TO CEDARRR! (: Monday, January 7, 2008 @ 12:24 AM WHEE SEA REGATTA HERE I COME. I hope Eirene's crashing later on if not I'll be bored to yawning every 5seconds! Sunday, January 6, 2008 @ 9:55 PM SRLYS, how many houses (especially a HDB flat) have more than 30 vases accumulated in them? While I'm bag-crazy, mum's vase-mad. T_T & why is it that I've been having this desire to get out of VJ asap ever since school started? Despite the netballers and how much fun I've been having in this CCA. I hope its just a passing "phase". Mum encouraged me to skip Sea Regatta tomorrow OMG I can't believe it. She was like "Since you dont like it, then just go for training in the afternoon lo." Oh boy. Its not that I dislike it; I desperately want to join in the fun. Just because... Goodness, I sound so unenthu. Box you weishan. CAN'T WAIT FOR LESSONS TO START. Okay back to THE NOOSE! Its so hilarious. @ 12:29 AM TJ. ): Saturday, January 5, 2008 @ 11:58 AM I FEEL LIKE SHIT And I missed the rgs friendly. ): My fringe/hair is a disaster. Sometimes I just want to rebond it. Ha. Btw Rainy.Day rebonded his hair OMG i thought only girls do that. Hahah. Charlene was talking about how sick she felt yesterday, and little did I know that I'd be the one who'll fall ill today. Argh. Saw a doc ytd and it has already burnt a hole in my pocket. Back to cedar to get the GPA cheque but the woman at the GO said it wasn't ready yet. ARGH. Met Filz, Singyee and Joanna who were with their NPCC juniors. And Nehneh plus the netballers. Hung around for about 5min before rushing off to sch. Finally completed the Rule of Four. Its a truly AMAZING book, much more interesting and comprehensible than the Da Vinci Code. But now I need to find a new reading companion. I want the Hypnerotomachia (if its even available here), its so mysterious and puzzling in a cool way! On the phone with Sarah for about an hour at midnight and RJ sounds so... FUN. Fun in a genuine and more logical way, like no cheering every 5minutes or so. I feel particularly random now... And I miss netball. ): Oh oh, Baker's Well blueberry muffins are so good! I'm gonna buy mum some every week after sch! :D Andrea said I'd grow fat if I go to Katong on a regular basis! Ohgawd. Thursday, January 3, 2008 @ 11:08 PM Thanks Luu for that lovely glittery case and sweets you got from Japan. (: So, day 2. It was an amazing surprise to find out that Igor was 2nd. Hahah. Highly unexpected. OG was much higher and enthu today hence more fun-filled. After lunch and cca walkabout, hung around at the netball booth and ended up skipping the rest of the activities. Don't like orientation. Heee. After which Andrea & Xueling became my unofficial tour guides and we took a tour around the compound. We walked Xueling out to bs, went to Neptune Court's 7-11, got some food, sat on the swing and talked. Pretty interesting, excluding the unnecessary "gift" of 2 gigantic mozzie bites. Oh we had to hide from Evelyn as well, cos she wanted us back in our OGs. But Naf saw us. :D Got back in time for debrief, and then OG dinner at CHANGI AIRPORT. Got takeaways and sat at the viewing gallery. Really dark but the lighting & music made the atmosphere kinda romantic. Haa. Was already petered out by then, and OGLs did most of the talking. Bus-ed home with Wu Yue, during which we talked alot. K thats about it. I want to sleep. Oh Eirene's crashing tomorrow and I had initially planned to leave after meeting the j2s, but oh well... At least there's training to look forward to. Can't wait for orientation to end. I myself don't know the reason why, but I really do not like it. At all. Wednesday, January 2, 2008 @ 10:37 PM Iclairis. With Jeralyn. I was a walking zombie today. DKW. Which didn't do me any good 'cause everyone was supp to be enthu and participating actively in everything but I could hardly stay awake. Must sleep early. AND must master the mass dances. (: AND must get into the appropriate level of enthusiasm by tmr. :D AND MOZZ IMPTLY, make new friends. Netball on saturday! Tuesday, January 1, 2008 @ 8:16 PM Goodness Gracious Me. Don't tell me there's gonna be more than 5 cedarians in Igor. Omg. I feel like I'm going back to Cedar already. |