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Saturday, February 23, 2008 @ 1:32 AM I know I just blogged not long ago. Looking back at the past & comparing it with the present, it has come to my realisation tt I'm very much different from the person I was in Sec1. Very, very different. Its scary trying to figure out what kind of person I am now. Cos I can hardly explain for my actions, and sometimes I myself cant even understand why I would have the guts (& conscience) to do certain things. Its definitely not a gd feeling. Why is it that it seems like I've become more selfish, more irresponsible and less emotionally-charged now that I've grown older? Like I'm often immune to other people's feelings, and even my own too. Like I've built an invisible wall around me thus not allowing ppl to get close & connect with me. Its as if, I'm a stranger to myself. Or maybe someone would like to tell me I'm just being too sensitive. I dont want to turn into a cold-hearted, unfeeling & uncaring creature. |